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Wow my friends, I have had the most emotionally physically and mentally draining last day, one of proportions that I never experienced before. At one point my vibration dropped so low I contemplated what it would be like to free my spirit of this place.
I have battled anxiety and depression for quite some time and that is one of the reasons I turned to meditation a few years ago. Sometimes though, even through deep and heavy meditative practices this ugly low vibrational feeling rears its ugly head and I am then forced to deal with it head on.
There is always a time in life where we have to deal on a low vibration or in other words deal with negative emotions and feelings. For me this came in a giant wave over the last two days. The first day I turned to my mat, the second day all I could do was savasana an deep meditation. Today, I am still reflecting.
I am reflecting on attachment today. In all reality that is where this all stemmed from. Being attached to opinions, being attached to emotions being attached to situations. If I could just let go and free my mind of the bonds it created, the bonds my ego feeds off of I could then free my spirit of them and truly find sumati.
I have reached a point in my journey that I have to overcome. Like a mountain this attachment stands before me. Like climbing a mountain I will stumble I will fear I will get to the tip and put it behind me.
I have faith in the universe to help me and to guide my soul to where it needs to be. With this faith I know I will be okay, I just need to get over this speed bump.
What are your mountains?
I like to use the word "detox" very loosely. Our bodies naturally detox, and have an amazing detoxing system including the liver, kidneys and colon. So when I hear all the hype surrounding detox pills, drinks, etc. I get a little agitated that these companies are taking credit for a perfected body function.
What these "detoxes" actually do is support your bodies natural ability to expel harmful and toxic substances. I only bring this up because I want all of us to appreciate our amazing wonderful bodies. So, how do I support my body you ask?
I like to follow tradition. Fasting has been around forever and is even mentioned biblically when Jesus fasted for 40 days. According to ayurvedic knowledge fasting is considered an austerity or depriving the senses and that is what brings us closer to enlightenment. Fasting also allows the body to naturally reset so to speak. We give our GI track a break and our organs a chance to catch up.
I don't like to fast completely. When fasting I drink up to a gallon of mineral water with lemon a day (also aids in detoxification and alkalizing the body), as well as drinking spirulina and wheatgrass because I enjoy treating my body well and that includes keeping it nourished.
This time around I will also be taking some liver support and a parasitic cleanse with black walnut and wormwood extract.
By giving my body a break and allowing it to naturally reset I am opening myself up for spiritual and mental health as well. When we feel good about ourselves our outlook on life becomes clearer.
For today's practice I really worked on some detoxifying twists. Making sure to twist from my core (like wringing out a towel) rather than going for cracking my back, this way it massages out my organs getting those muscles and fluids working. I stayed away from inversions today so that way my bodies natural flow was not disturbed by gravity. It is very important to listen to your body and know what is best to acomplish your goal in your practice. Much of the time we strive to continue practicing those asanas we haven't mastered, for me those are inversions, and though I wanted to keep practicing it is not the right time for my body while I cleanse my system.
Remember to work with nature not against it and in the end the universe will reward those who are knowledgeable. How do you detox fellow yogi?
Today I woke up, got on my mat and just felt bad. I felt bad about my looks, about myself in general really. So instead of just jumping into my normal practice I sat down and looked to myself and the universe for answers.
Reflecting back I can't pinpoint why I felt bad about myself but the feeling I received told me it did not matter. Rather, what mattered is that I let the feeling go.
Inside all of us is a beautiful soul. And our outer bodies are beautiful vessels for those souls. We are all fractal pieces of the universe and we are all connected and loved. Self love comes from inner acceptance and also unattachment of material ideas. If we lose weight will we love ourselves more? If we change our physical features will we love ourselves more? Or will giving up those human ideals bring about greater self acceptance. We don't need to look far to find ourselves.
Today my practice was full of heart openers and perspective changers. I love hanumanasana as a heart opener and headstands as a perspective changer. I focused on loving my body through my practice and thanking my body for all the amazing functions it preforms for me.
The only person we need to impress is ourselves. Once we embrace our inner beauty and inner goddess we embrace the universe and the love that it has to offer. Each day is beautiful, just like your soul and heart.
It is my firm belief that we as humans like to get comfortable. We do things on repetition until it becomes second nature and that's where I was at with my yoga practice. A couple sun salutations, maybe throw in some backbends some balancing poses and the like and then finish it all off with savasana. It was great! Stretched all those pesky kinks out, finished with meditation to set my intention for the day and there is nothing wrong with getting comfortable in your routine. We all need to find that balance and comfort because that is where we find peace and habit.
I felt the universe calling out to me though. I felt my body telling me it was ready for more, it was ready to bend balance and show its new strength. So I complied. I got on my mat and timed my practice to my mantra something I had never done before and I pushed my body to things I never thought I could do. Something amazing happened. My mind spirit and body all worked together in a dance of the asanas. As my body moved in and out of poses and stretches my mind became less cluttered and my spirit became lighter. I was free of my material self for the first time.
At the end of my practice I came into savasana, not out of habit but out of need. My muscles were worked I was drenched in sweat and I let my body rest while my mind fell away and my soul took over.
Sometimes the universe calls out and we believe it to be more than we can handle but if we put our faith in the universe and our souls inside us we truly can accomplish great things and experience something divine. In yoga there is something very common you hear "listen to your body" I think every teacher I ever had told me that and I even catch myself saying it, but there is nothing truer. We are all on this journey of self discovery but we cannot expect to all have the same experience. We must look inside ourselves to what our own personal needs are. When we find our true higher self we find our greater purpose.
So today's lesson: listen to your bodies my fellow yogis, sometimes we may surprise ourselves with what we are truly capable of.
Today I want to talk about my journey and what led me to yoga and clean eating. We all have a story and regardless of where we are on this path the beggining, the middle, or perhaps we have mastered it. We will all end up where we want to be.
My journey started my freshman year of high school. I was overweight, I felt out of place and I needed an outlet. At the time sports weren't really my thing, so I looked to yoga. I found an article about it in a fitness magazine and I took that as inspiration. The natural flexibility,strength and balance awed me and I wanted to be able to bend my body like they did, I wanted to look like them. Little did I know there was much more to it than that.
I started at the library. A book on healthy eating and a book of all the asanas. Flipping through the pages I vowed to myself I would execute every one of them one day. I started in to the asanas but I did not make it a practice instead I focused on stretching my body to limits I should not of crossed, entered into poses I wasn't ready for and hurt myself a few times. I loved the way the beginner poses made me feel but I was missing something and eventually I returned the books and I stopped.
A few years later during my junior year I started soccer and during summer practice I started back in to yoga with actual classes. I fell in love with vinyasa. The movement and breath and overall feeling of stillness and calm really spoke to me. Clean eating followed by natural progression.
I am still on this journey, still learning bending and trying. I don't ever see my life without yoga and meditation I hope my story can inspire you to never give up, to keep on moving until you find your niche.
Namaste my friends